FRUSTRATION..............

Frustration.........there it is.  Why do the things of this life make us so frustrated?   I KNOW my God will supply everything I need, but I insist on being frustrated that what I need isn't there right away.

Something happened this week and it dawned on me that maybe God is trying to show me that when we pray for a specific thing, His answer or solution to that prayer may not be what we expect......or necessarily want.

I have this bill that is due on the 20th of each month.  That date almost always falls too early for one of my checks to be in.   I have the ability to go online prior to that date and extend the date to the 24th (which is normally right at one of my paychecks).  It's our satellite bill.    Well.....I forgot to extend the date.  The 20th came and went.  No T.V. for now.

Now Marty and I have been discussing trimming it down for a while or even just cancelling.  Partly because a different company is in the process of running fiber optic cable and we'll finally be able to get that at a much cheaper price.  Partly because it's one bill that could be smaller.    I've been fighting him tooth and nail because I feel bad.   Marty doesn't have a whole lot to do during the day and I feel that cutting out t.v. or getting less channels will be a bad/hard thing for him.   

Now, after being totally frustrated with myself when Marty tried to turn on the t.v. that morning and there was nothing, I started thinking about it and praying on my way to work.    Without having to scrape to pay that bill, I was able to pay three other bills that were due.   I wouldn't have been able to pay them if the satellite bill had been paid out of this check.   I think God was trying to show me.  He allowed me to "forget" to extend that due date.   It all works out and we aren't going to die without satellite t.v.    Marty has other things he can do to keep him occupied during the day.  The world isn't going to stop spinning because we don't have t.v.   I'm not excited to miss some of the shows we watch on a regular basis, but we will survive.   

There is a song that just keeps playing on the radio.  I've always liked it, but I think it really fits what this is all about.   Laura Story sings it.  It is called Blessings

"Cause what if Your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise"

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Sometimes we are so upset by things that happen in our lives.   I'm learning to step back and pray that God reveals the reason things happen.   Sometimes He does, sometimes He doesn't.  Ultimately it all works out in the end though.   God is so much bigger than the things that frustrate us.